Coffee Should Come With a Warning Label :)

Boy it’s been a busy, productive yet long day.  I’ve been up for quite some time now and all I want to do is go to sleep

Woke up at 6 this morning (which compared to my mom is sleeping in) so I could take my dad’s car to get its brakes replaced in Fremont, which is an hour away.  Fml.  I used to be a morning person, but college changed that.  I’m hoping to savor these last couple years in grad school because night classes allow me to sleep in.  Amazing   Anyway, after spending a couple hours down there, I came home to help my dad put in the new floor in the grain bin.  Fun fun.

After lunch I drove back to school, got some homework and random errands done, then went to class from 4 to 9.  I love going to class because I learn so much (really I’m not being sarcastic) but the 6-9 class always seems to get me.  I do too much during the day so I’m tired by the time 6 o’clock rolls around.  I need to start fitting in naps during the afternoon.  Oh darn

Let’s just say that I’m feeling the effects of caffeine overdosing.  I’ve been drinking coffee, Mountain Dew and Coke since 7:30 this morning.  Crazy!!!

Anyway, I’m being ridiculous.  Time to get some shit done then say hi to my pillow.  Night everyone!

Ambition

It’s been a long one.  Guess I didn’t really do anything constructive this morning, but we mowed all afternoon.  For most people probably, mowing isn’t too big of a chore.  But at my parent’s house, there’s about 4 acres to mow, half of which we mow with a push mower.  It takes 3 of us rotating all afternoon to do that portion of the mowing, and we’re exhausted by the time we’re done.  My feet are killing me and I’m finding it hard to concentrate.  My bed is calling me!

But, I’m trying to be responsible and do some homework.  I read most of the material on Friday, but I need to submit questions and do my weekly homework before tomorrow night’s class.  I’m gonna try and come up with some bullshit answers then hit the hay.  I doubt I’ll do my best work tonight, but at least it’s something.

Have a good night everyone

It’s Been Awhile

Wow, it’s been awhile since I’ve posted any updates.  Yikes.

So much has changed since April.

In lieu of updating with a blog post, I will update my bio and other pages, then go from there.

When a Girl Misses You…

When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile.

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you she wants you to hold her hand.

When she wants a hug she will just stand there.

When you break a girl’s heart she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.

When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, “I’m fine,” after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing games.

When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl says she can’t live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, “I miss you,” no one in this world can miss you more than that.

When a girl is mean to you after a break-up she wants you back, but she’s scared she’ll get hurt.

Guy Facts:

When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you.

When a guy is quiet, he’s listening to you…

When a guy is not arguing, he realizes he’s wrong.

When a guy says, “I’m fine.” after a few minutes he means it.

When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.

When you’re laying your head on a guy’s chest, he has the world.

When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday, he is in love.

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it.

When a guy says he can’t live without you, he’s with you til you’re done.

When a guy says, “I miss you,” he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.

“Full Circle” Aerosmith

Yeah
If I could change the world
Like a fairy tale
I would drink the love
From your Holy Grail
I would start with love
Tell ol’ Beelzeebub
To get outta town
‘Cause you just lost your job

How did we get so affected (cause I think)
Love is love reflected

Time
Don’t let it slip away
Raise yo’ drinkin’ glass
Here’s to yesterday
In Time
We’re all gonna trip away
Don’t piss Heaven off
We got Hell to pay
Come full circle

If
There’s a spell on you that
I could take away
I would do the deed
Yeah and by the way
Here’s to Heaven knows
As the circle goes
It ain’t right
I’m uptight
Get off my toes!

I used to think that every little thing I did was crazy
But now I think- the Karma cops are comin’ after you

Time
Don’t let it slip away
Raise yo drinkin’glass
Here’s to yesterday
In Time
We’re all gonna trip away
Don’t piss Heaven off
We got Hell to pay
Come full circle

Every time you get yourself caught up inside
Of someone else’s crazy dream
Own it, yeah that’s a mistake
Everybody’s gotta lotta nada killing them
Instead of killing me

Time
Don’t let it slip away
Raise yo’ drinkin’glass
Here’s to yesterday
In Time
We’re all gonna trip away
Don’t piss Heaven off
We got Hell to pay
Come full circle

Time
Don’t let it slip away
Raise yo’ drinkin’glass
Here’s to yesterday
In Time
We’re all gonna trip away
Don’t piss Heaven off
We got Hell to pay
Come full circle

Circle, circle, circle, circle, circle, circle, circle

Seeds of Doubt

I can’t seem to get to sleep, so I’m trying to get random things accomplished.  Unfortunately, I haven’t written in my journal for a couple weeks and I haven’t blogged in almost two months.  Crazy I know, but time flies when you’re having fun.  If only I were having fun though.  Anyway…

Friday morning I was working Jess and Zach, and they planted a little seed in my head that I thought I buried and forgotten.  I was talking to them about spotter training and how excited I was for it, and Jess asked me the proverbial question I’ve been asking myself for years: “What is your major and why aren’t you going into that field?”.

Fuck.  She reads me just like a book, and sometimes I hate her for that.  I really enjoy the counseling atmosphere and I just got accepted into a master’s program, but I still have this lingering feeling in the back of my mind that I shouldn’t be doing this. I have about three weeks to accept my spot in the counseling program, which doesn’t leave me much time to decide.

What the hell am I going to do?  These days I’m so stressed out with school, work and preparing for graduation that the only thing I want to do is sleep.  The only thing that even wakes me out of my school coma is looking at weather maps and tracking storm cells.  You would think that would be a big enough clue, but apparently I’m really that blind.

I’m so confused with life right now.  Ugh.  I just got rid of this feeling of being lost, and it’s back.  Again.

It’s Been Awhile…

It’s really been a long time since I’ve blogged, but I’ve been so busy with school, friends and worrying about my future that I haven’t had a good amount of time to just sit and breathe, much less blog.  This evil term is finally over with and I no longer have a class with my cognitive professor, which is a miracle in itself.  This last month has been filled with papers, tests and pointless group projects that I have learned nothing from.  In fact, two of my classes this term were pointless and I really didn’t learn anything new.  Ugh!  I’m starting to think my entire psychology major is just bullshit.  I’m already finding out that the degree itself is pretty much useless, but that’s an entirely different story…

I’m sitting here at home on term break (yes break!) before my last term at BCU begins.  It’s so crazy to think that this will be my last term, and that in less than three months I’ll be marching across the Orpheum stage receiving my diploma booklet.  Haha.  It’s mostly crazy because I didn’t think college would fly by so fast.  It seems like just yesterday that I was moving my stuff to the dorms and meeting my awful roommate.  Ugh I still have nightmares about that, but anyway. 

I’m looking forward to being done with classes, but I’m not ready to leave my friends and comfort zone.  I’m not heading out into the big, scary world just yet but still.  My friends are moving away (my bff is moving 8 hours away to Missouri) and my life will be changing.   I have never adapted well to change.  Uprooting me is never a good idea because it takes me a very long time to get adjusted to new places, faces and situations.  Sometimes I think I’m autistic, but not really. 

I’m not the only one changing though.  My cousin is being induced tonight and she’ll probably have her baby tomorrow sometime.  So I’ll have a new second cousin soon!  I’m pretty excited about that.  Amy has a name picked out, but she’s not telling anyone until the birth, so as a joke we’re all calling the baby Juanita.  Keep your fingers crossed that the delivery goes well

I’m excited because I have an interview next month for the school counseling program at USD.  My advisor is 99.9% sure that I’ll be accepted, but I’m not 100% that I’ll be going.  Long story but here goes.  I started a new practicum at East High school a month ago in the guidance office.  I loved it and I’m 100% sure that school counseling is what I want to do.  Sounds great, right?  Well, in Iowa and South Dakota, you do not need to have a teaching license and experience to get licensure as a school counselor.  But, I want to come back to Nebraska, where they are very, very strict on their licensure.  It’s ridiculous and I honestly think that’s why they have such a shortage of counselors.  But anyway.  In order for me to ever work in Nebraska as a school counselor, I would need to go back to school for another three years or so because if I was being forced to teach, I would teach math and not biology or psychology, the endorsements I would already have done.  So I’m trying to decide if I want to delay my admission to the program and head straight into an education program or just get my counseling degree and work in Iowa.  Decisions, decisions.  It’s a little more complicated than that, but I could probably vent for an hour on this subject.

Anyway, I’m really not looking forward to having Sr. Michaela next term.  She doesn’t like me and I think she’s the devil, but I have to take her class to graduate.  So I guess I’m not going to do anything about it, but I’ll piss and moan like an impotent (not really applicable here) jerk and then bend over and take it up the tailpipe.  If you don’t the reference, please watch Liar Liar.  Your life will be much more hilarious when you do. 

On another note, I’m re-reading Twilight.  After seeing the movie twice, I feel like it has perversed my image of the story enough that I need to find out what really happened.  Hahaha.  I suppose I should go finish the first book.

Just remember….Se op.

25 Randoms

1. I really want to take guitar lessons.

2. I heart my car.  Bert and I are the same age and we get along fanstically (is that a word?).

 

3. I do not like to polish my fingernails.

 

4. I think I could have a love affair with Mountain Dew.

 

5. I spend way too much money on clothes from Old Navy.  I can’t decide if that’s a good or bad thing.

 

6. I am probably the biggest Aerosmith fan ever.  I have all of their albums and I’m waiting for them to annouce their 2009 tour dates, because I am going to at least one concert on this tour.  I have to.

 

7. I collect Willow Angels and foreign money.

 

8. I am a girly-girl and a wannabe rocker.

 

9. I cannot dance. I am terribly klutzy.

 

10. I’ve had a “Bush’s Last Day” countdown on my profile for two years and it’s almost complete   Finally!

 

11. I have almost killed Jaimie in my car at least three times and she is still my friend.

 

12. One of my life goals is to visit Denmark.

 

13. I listen to my iPod almost every night before going to bed, which isn’t a good thing because I get really pumped listening to rock music.  Hmm…

 

14. I wish I had more time to do free reading.  My fav authors come out with so many new books that I never have time to read.

 

15. I’m graduating from college in May.

 

16. Although it’s boring sometimes, I love being in Nebraska.  I’ll definitely be coming back here after I’m done with school.

 

17. I would rather text than talk on the phone.

 

18. I am pro-choice.  If you don’t like it, deal with it.

 

19. I can bake an apple pie from scratch and prefer to do it that way.

 

20. I have big feet and it’s a pain to buy cute shoes.

 

21. I cannot find my watch and it’s driving me nuts to not have it on.

 

22. I am known for constantly saying “your mom.”

 

23. I’ve worked in financial aid for the past three years and could probably tell you anything you wanted to know.

 

24. I am a faithful Cosmo reader

 

25. My friends and I really miss Tanner J!!

Good Riddance “Time of Your Life”

I realize that I’m not graduating until May, but my mind just flew forward and I got kinda sad.  I’m excited to get out of this place, but I’m not ready to leave my friends.  It’s looking like we’re all gonna move far away from each other and I just can’t handle that right now.  I’m trying to make the most of my time here, but it still bums me out to think of it.

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don’t ask why
It’s not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it’s worth it was worth all the while

It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Dorks are my thing….

I’m not going to lie.  I can be quite nerdy at times, especially with academia, football and Aerosmith trivia.  So it shouldn’t surprise anyone that I’m kinda into dorky/nerdy/geeky guys.  I think it’s the intelligence that I find appealing, but I can’t exactly pinpoint the specific interest.

Anywho, I met this guy in the summer of 2007.  We e-mailed back and forth a few times, chatted online and met once or twice, but somehow I kinda lost contact with him.   However, I started talking to him a few months ago.  We chat on the phone every two weeks or so, sometimes for a couple hours.  Honestly, I could talk to him forever and not get sick of it.  He’s smart and kinda shy, so he kinda comes off as a dork.  I find it kinda cute though.  Plus, he’s definitely one of those guys you could take home to your parents. Totally sweet, caring, the type that kisses you on the forehead

He lives a few hours away, but he was in town this past Friday night so we went out.  Had dinner, drove around Fremont, talked, hung out for awhile, the works.  I hadn’t seen him in quite awhile so it was fun to just talk and hang out.   Problem though.  If the distance thing worked out, I could totally see us dating.  But I’m not sure how he feels.  I need to mull this over in my head before I chat with him and tell him how I feel, because every other time this happens, the feels are never returned.  Idk.

School update: term one is over.  I ended up with two B+ and two A’s, so I made the Dean’s list for the term.  I’m not very excited about that, but I am excited that spanish and micro are over and that I finished my biology minor.  Term two got off to a rough start today.  I started having pain in my left hip yesterday that has yet to go away.  I woke up this morning and was so sore that I literally couldn’t move.  I had to call in on my first day of interning at the hospital because it took me an hour to meander out of bed.  I’m kinda bummed about that because I’m not sure how my supervisors are going to like me not being there today.  Other than that, I just plain have senioritis.  I didn’t want to come back yesterday, so much so that I was toying with the idea of withdrawing.  Kinda stupid, right?

Alright.  This blog entry is full of crappy grammar and I’m going to call it quits for the night and get some shut-eye since I have a class at 8:00.  If anyone reading this knows a good way to get rid of this hip pain, let me know.  I’m dying.